A colleague struck $1250 in toto last weekend. Naturally, everyone was quite excited about it. She was to cash in her winnings at lunch time yesterday.

Lunch time came, and to her horror, she discovered the ticket missing. A group of 5 to 6 working professionals rummaged through her workstation (while I looked on, as I did not wish to play a part in this whole thing :p), trying their best to hunt for the golden ticket. I could see the panic in the "almost winner"'s eyes as she cooly hunted for the lost one. I left for lunch after that as selfish me, simply couldn't imagine spending the next 30 minutes of my precious lunch hunting for something totally unrelated to myself.

Winning a lottery...I'm not sure if you can say that comes from God (or can we?). But that incident made me think about the blessings God has granted to us, and how He can take it away from us in a split second. Healthy one moment, limping the next. Rich today, poor tomorrow. Beautiful today, hideous next week. Such blessings have always been there but as sure as they're there, no one's to say they are here to stay. Just like my job too, here today, gone tomorrow?

I can't believe I've been at this job for 2 years. 2 years of stress, crazy deadlines, late nights, heartaches, annoyance, despair. It fascinates me thinking about how the ones who have been here longer keep themselves sane. Due to the lack of stability in employment these days, I've been offered another go at the job for another 2 years. 2 years of stable monthly income, alhamdulillah. But after that?

I'll cross the bridge when I get to it, I guess.

But see, although I sometimes loathe working here, I do want the job at the end of the day to pay the bills. But Allah has His reason for not granting something too permanent for me, so at least I won't get too complacent? Just like the lottery ticket, the winnings are there for me, but I suppose if I don't take good care of it, I could lose it, which means losing my winnings too!

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