I'm thinking of getting a new digital camera but today I thought about whether I deserve one after all.

Have I completed my duties well enough to deserve it? Maybe I should clear some long overdue reports first before I claim the right to purchase a brand-new smelling camera.

But on the flipside, I need some form of motivation to actually get my reports done!!

How?

Actually come to think of it, I've managed my finances really well for the past few weeks. I've not even swiped the card at all this month! I really have to congratulate myself for having such a high level of discipline.

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I complain about the ridiculous amount of workload I have to deal with daily. But is the workload really ridiculous, or am I simply being lazy? Maybe I'm just not cut out for this job. Maybe it's normal to bring work home and slog away on off days (irregardless of whether it's Labour day!) because everyone's doing it too.
I do admit though, that I'm not as ON as many others; I prefer to hide in my little shell like a snail, doing what I have to do without stretching myself too much in projects at the expense of my precious personal time. I'm talking in circles now. Sometimes I'm not sure if I fit into mainstream S'pore.

Now after all this, maybe I don't deserve the camera after all.